Law School Autism Mom Scene 5: An Epoch in My Life
“Oh, it’s delightful to have ambitions. I’m so glad I have such a lot. And there never seems to be any end to them– that’s the best of it. Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another one glittering higher up still. It does make life so interesting.”
When I was nine-years old, my mother gave me a copy of Anne of Green Gables for Chanukah. I had always enjoyed reading but this is the book that made me fall in love with reading. I couldn’t put it down, became enamored with Anne Shirley and was ecstatic that there was an entire series of books that continued the remarkable story of her life. I became a voracious reader after that and to this day, am always in the middle of a book. Yet after all of these years and hundreds of books, I don’t think I have ever connected to a character in a novel the way that I did with Anne. She was just so filled with life, wonder, positivity, wisdom and love. I wanted to be just like her.
I recently reread Anne of Green Gables for the first time in about 30 years. A wide range of emotions swept through me as I reunited with my favorite heroine. I was delighted to read the beautiful, poetic paragraphs describing Prince Edward Island-they still bring vivid pictures to my mind. I was nostalgic when I met Gilbert Blythe for the first time (again) and cried very sad tears when Matthew died. L.M. Montgomery’s words filled me as much at 44 as they did at 9, perhaps even more given the context of my own life.
Tomorrow is my first official day of law school-Anne Shirley would identify it as an “epoch” in my life. I have received a tremendous response to my decision to become a special-needs attorney-all positive. I have heard everything from “I could never go back to school at my age, good for you,” to “you have inspired me to reconsider my own career choices.”
The truth is, it feels incredibly peaceful to be on the right path at exactly the perfect time for me. As I consider what to wear tomorrow for my first day and wonder how I will fit in with a cohort of students who are half my age, I just know it will all be amazing. I will not take a single moment of the next three years for granted and feel that my experiences up to this point will make me appreciate this journey in a way that I wouldn’t have at 23.
So, off I go, filled with ambition, a new backpack (on wheels) and a ton of new law books. I am ready to embrace the next phase of my life and to quote the girl who continues to inspire me in so many ways: “Isn’t it splendid to think of all the things there are to find out about? It just makes me feel glad to be alive–it’s such an interesting world. It wouldn’t be half so interesting if we knew all about everything, would it? There’d be no scope for imagination then, would there?”
Anne, I couldn’t agree more.